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Wednesday, February 25

Love Has a Name.


It seems like at least one time each night an SPCA commercial plays during our television time. I know that when the first note of Sarah McLachlan’s song Angel plays, my husband will be reaching for the remote to either mute the television or change the channel. He doesn’t care for the commercial at all, especially by the third or fourth time. Looking into those sad puppy eyes just does in him.

When I was a child,  I remember a similar commercial trying to raise funds for orphaned children. I don’t remember the name of the organization. All I really do remember is that it was filmed near a set a train tracks. I can still see some of the children’s faces in my memory. Orphans.  Starving children. Desperate for help. Longing for hope. Needing a way out. Each of them praying for an answered prayer to come quickly. So sad, and heartbreaking.

It wasn’t until many years later that I held an orphan for the first time. In his book, Radical, David Platt has this to say in regards to orphans and orphan care – “ We learned that orphans are easier to ignore before we know their names. They are easier to ignore before you see their faces. It is easier to pretend that they’re not real before you hold them in your arms. But once you do, everything changes.”  Allow those words to sink in. That statement is SO powerful, and I can promise you it is SO true.

As much as it pains me to say this (and I hope that this comment doesn’t offend any of my readers), I feel as a culture, we have become quite “numb” to seeing these nameless orphans. We have grown used to see shirtless children with distended stomachs. So much so, that I would be willing to bet that it almost doesn’t even register in our minds as heartbreaking. I know that I may sound harsh at this moment, but I am stepping on my own toes as well. We see clips of third world counties on the news and don’t fully feel the “pang” that poverty should bring to our souls. What if we knew the name of each child living in poverty that we were exposed to? Would they seem more real to us? Would the reality of poverty be more real to you if you could snuggle with one of these precious children? The answer to all of those questions is yes. I know that it is the answer, because I have been there. I have heard the names of “the least of these” children and I have snuggled them in my arms, or spun them around in circle as we have danced.

They all have a name. They are NOT the nameless – even though sometimes it may feel that way. They not only have a name, but they have a purpose. Today I was given the opportunity to help be a apart of one of these children’s purpose.

My Haiti-sister, Paige tagged me a post from a young man named Luke who recently returned from a trip to PAP, Haiti. In Luke’s post he told the story of Nixon, who lives a top Cha-Cha Mountain. Luke was working on the building project that Haiti Under God has been working on for a few years on the mountain – and it is looking wonderful! Cha-Cha is such a fun place to be. I remember having a blast with the children the trip that the team I was with travelled up Cha-Cha, and Luke’s experience seemed to be very similar.
While fellowshipping with the children, Luke met a very special boy named Nixon. Nixon lost his mother to a complicated sickness when he was a young boy, and his father in the PAP earthquake in 2010, so he now lives with his elderly grandmother. I doubt that any of us can truly understand the level of poverty that Nixon and his grandmother face each day.  Because of the starvation and malnourishment that he has been subjected to, Nixon’s skin is cracked, and his stomach is bloated. He has also had delayed growth development – looking several years younger than that age he is (12 years old). 

Thankfully, God placed Luke and Nixon’s paths together so that Luke could help tell Nixon’s story. Pastor Maxeau, one of our trusted connections in Haiti, stays in contact with the people of Cha-Cha Mountain, and has offered to take Nixon to PAP (probably a 5 hour trip from Cha-Cha, including time spent walking/riding a donkey down the mountain) to have him medically checked.  It is feared that Nixon may have worms, among other things, that need to be treated ASAP.  Maxeau has also offered to help purchase food and/or livestock for the family so they can become sustainable livers. Nixon was given the opportunity to attend school for the first time this year (he is starting in K-5), and he also attends church on Cha-Cha.
As we all know, getting things like this accomplished takes money. I am asking you to prayerfully consider choosing to be a part of helping Nixon achieve his purpose in life, by helping meet some of the basic needs that he and his grandmother have. If you feel a tug on your heart to help Nixon, donations can be made on Haiti Under God’s website at www.haitiundergod.org (put Nixon in the donation designation area, and 100% of the funds will go towards Nixon’s care). If would like to hear more about Nixon’s story, contact Luke at LukeSteen123@gmail.com .







These are pictures of orphans. Of scenes that we all may have become used to seeing – never wondering these children’s names. But they have names. Nixon has a name. Sema has a name. But most importantly, love has a name, and that name is Jesus. Show love today. Show Him today.

Blessings,
Hannah

Here is a link to Luke's Facebook if you would like to read more about Nixon - https://www.facebook.com/luke.steen.7.

Sunday, February 22

To Choose Blindness or Love?


Tonight (this morning?) my heart is heavy. I don’t know that I have the exact words to tell you why. Honestly, I am not even completely sure why. But it is.

About a month ago, Drew and I watched a movie titled The Good Lie. It told the story of Sudanese children who were orphaned as a result of war, and their journey to find a better life. I wept during this movie. My heart was broken over what these children had to endure. But, the next day, I went back to normal life. My heart still feeling heavy, but the orphaned children of Africa feeling so far away.

A few weeks ago, Drew and I went to see the Watoto Children’s Choir from Uganda perform in Beaufort.  The children put on a great show, and I am glad we went. I am thankful, not only because I enjoyed the show, but because of the conversation it sparked in the car on our way back home. I am so blessed to have a husband who may not completely understand my heart, but supports my desire to show His heart. But, yet again, a few days later, the heaviness that I felt for these children was swept to the side for the busyness of my own daily routine.

A few nights after we saw the children’s choir, a documentary came on ETV about child slavery. The first segment was about Haiti. If you’ve read my blog before, you know that I have a heart for missions, and that God has given me a passion for missions. That passion started in Haiti. I sat on the couch, in our nice brick home and felt a tear hit my cheek for the children of Haiti. For the restaveks – child slaves – of Haiti.  I was feeling yet another familiar urge to find a way to help, but again, the urge faded away as it was lost in the shuffle of life.

Last Friday Pulse Dance Company from Claflin University did a show at CCHS. It was wonderful! The first part of the show was a tribute to African-American dance inspirations, and for the second part of the show, they did a few dance scenes from The Lion King (yes, Drew, I contained myself). The third song they danced to was Glory by John Legend. I hadn’t heard the song before, but many of the students recognized it from a movie, Selma, that was recently released (a few weeks prior they went on a fieldtrip to see the film).

 As the song began to play, I was surprised by the thought that entered my mind. This thought is the reason for this blog, and to be honest, at this moment I am typing this sentence to delay telling you about it. I don’t think I am ashamed of it. I don’t know, maybe I am. What popped into my mind as the dancers began to gracefully move around the stage to the moving lyrics was, “I chose not to go see that. I can’t take it.” I chose to not go see the movie Selma. Not because the life of Dr. Martin Luther King isn’t important to me, because it is in so many ways, but because I chose to be blind to the reality. To the reality of the pain that so many African-Americans had to face.  I couldn’t stand the idea of sitting in a theatre and watching a story about the REAL LIFE hurt of others. I chose to not go see it. I CHOSE TO BE BLIND.

 I hate to see hurting people (I often fast-forward any sad segment of even fictional movies), but what I need to realize is that hurt doesn’t go away if we close our eyes. It may go away to us, it may no longer be a part of our reality, but it does not go away. Each day we all choose to be blind. Out of sight, out of mind – right? The starving children of Africa, the child slaves of Haiti, the hungry children in our own county, and so much more may not be in our daily line of sight but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t there.

Until we CHOOSE to open up our eyes, until we CHOOSE to see, we can never truly make a difference. If my eyes continue to stay shut, even if they open for a moment and then close again, I cannot do what I was put on this earth to do. I can’t show Him before allowing Him to show things to me. I have to choose to see. No matter how much my heart hurts, and no matter how overwhelmed by the brokenness of the world I feel, if I never choose to see I can never show His love.

I don’t know yet how I am going to make a difference, or how I am going to show the love of Jesus to the hurting world around me. But, I have taken the first step in allowing Him to use me. I am choosing love over blindness. I am choosing to see. I encourage you to choose the same.

Blessings,
Hannah

“I’ve been silent instead of speaking out,
Gave my advice instead of speaking love,
I have been unfair, faithless and unkind,
I have shut my eyes, just so I could stay blind,
It’s not what I meant to do,
‘Cause I want to honor You.”
 
- Make Me Over, Natalie Grant

Thursday, January 22

3 Steps to Walking on Water



Ok, y’all, I’ve figured out something so exciting. This girl has figured out something that many have pondered. I hope you’re ready for this, because today I am going to tell you how to … wait for it …. WALK ON WATER! Yes, you read that right. Now, get your eyes ready for what you are about to read, because there are only three simple steps. Ready? I hope so! Here goes!

Step 1) Trust God

Step 2) Get out of the boat

Step 3) Move forward

I would like to tell you that I figured this out in a moment in life that was full of peace and certainty, and also at a time where Step 1 came easy for me. But, I won’t lie to you. Peace and certainty do not apply to how I have felt today, and trusting God has not come easily during these moments. Quite frankly, I did not want to get out of the boat today. I didn’t want to have to trust God with all that’s in me while walking on the water, especially when it felt like the “waves” of life were trashing all around me. I repeat, I did not want to get out of the boat. As my husband said earlier today, we were pushed out of the boat. No voluntary leaps here, folks. So, having been pushed out I had a decision to make. Either I can sink, drown, wallow in fear OR I can fix my eyes on Jesus, walk on the water, and move forward.

This isn’t the only boat I’ve been shoved out of lately. A few months ago, God took our family through another experience that the required the faith and trust that must come with walking on the water. I didn’t catch on so quickly to Step 3 with that experience. I chose to be consumed by the circumstances of the waves, and did not keep my eyes above them (fixed on Jesus) while moving forward. I allowed bitterness and fear to creep in and I began to sink – but never, ever too far from His hand. Oh, how I love Jesus!

This time though, I’m walking on the water. I am fixing my eyes on Jesus and moving forward while trusting that what He has ahead for us is far better than anything I could possibly ever imagine. I am taking off the garments of worry and fear and putting on the garment of praise. I may not have chosen to be kicked out of the boat, but I AM choosing to trust God and walk on the water. I know He’s got me, and if you’re going through your own “out of the boat” experience, be encouraged because I know that He’s got you, too.

Blessings,

Hannah

Monday, January 19

Lessons from Lunch at a Cemetery

Death. The ultimate ending point of life. It’s a word that all of us know, and that most of us have felt the harsh reality of. I remember the first time I experience the finality of death. I was in the 2nd grade, and our lab (Duke) was hit by a car. Little did I know the person who comforted me on that Tuesday would be the next person who I would be faced with losing in life.  

My Granny exited this life and entered eternity on June 20th, 2000. Yesterday would have been her 71st birthday. I. LOVE. BIRTHDAYS. I find great joy in celebrating the people in life that I love, so it shouldn’t be a huge surprise to you to know that I still celebrate my Granny’s birthday. When I was younger, I would make her a card, and bury it somewhere outdoors (I’m not really sure what the child-like logic of that was – but I did it, every year, without fail). The January after I got my license, I started a new tradition of lunch at the cemetery.  For the past six years on a day in the middle of January, I have made my way to the cemetery armed with Mellow Yellow (the only thing I can remember her enjoying food/beverage wise with the exception of liver, which isn’t happening for this girl) and a beach towel. I sit, and celebrate her life .. and, if I’m honest with you, sometimes cry that it was over so soon.

But, that isn’t exactly what I’m here to write about. Sandra Aldrich Headley (Sandra Kaye Aldrich) was born and a Tuesday, and died on a Tuesday. As I sat today, I thought about how those two Tuesdays defined what every stranger that has ever looked at her headstone thought of her life. Yes, January 18, 1944 and June 20, 2000 are important dates, but I think all of Tuesdays in between are what mattered the most. Like the Tuesday that she held me as I cried over our lost family pet, or the Tuesday that she went for a swim with me, and definitely the Tuesday that she dressed up as Raggedy Ann for my birthday. All of those days are what made her life, not just the day she was born and the day she died.

All of my life I have heard how short life is, and recently I’ve discovered the truth in that statement. As a result, I am working towards being content with each day of my life. No longer looking forward to the next phase of life, but truly loving the one I am in. I am focusing on enjoying this day – because I know that I’ll never get it back. So, today, as you go through life, remember that one day you’ll be remembered by a headstone with two dates that are important, but that it is all of the days in between that truly matter.

Let your light shine. Be kind. Most importantly, enjoy today for today, and not because it takes you one step closer to tomorrow.
 
Blessings, 
Hannah  

Sunday, December 28

Dear 2014.


Dear 2014,

Wow. What a year you’ve been. You’ve literally shown me the worst of times, and the most joyous of times. I’ve learned this year what it means to mourn the loss of losing people who you once loved, and the overwhelming feeling of thankfulness that comes with sealing a life-long promise with someone who will love you forever. You’ve taught me the importance of community, and why it is critical to only surround yourself with people who will bring out the best in you. Thanks to you, I’ve realized that the people of influence in my life need to be the ones who see the best in me (even when I don’t see it in myself). I’ve also watched two of my favorite people go to battle with the ugly, ugly thing called cancer. Cancer never truly wins though, because love is bigger.

There are many things I’ll take away from you and many things I’ll gladly leave behind. I’m leaving behind unforgiveness and bitterness. 2014, I’ve learned something as you’ve come to a close, and that is (get ready for a harsh reality, readers) that God love my enemies. I know, gasp, the preacher’s daughter has only *just now* come to this reality. I know, I know, what can I say? I’m a slow learner sometimes. So, to the things and people who have caused me pain in 2014, I forgive you. Not because I am madly in love with you and not because I want to be your best bud (sorry, so not there yet, folks) but simply because Jesus loves you. He has forgiven the absolute worst in me, so why should I not forgive it in you? Heck, you may not even think that you need my forgiveness, but I am not forgiving you (or leaving this hurt behind for you) I’m doing it for me. Selfish? Maybe, so forgive me if you think it is. The truth is though, forgiveness doesn’t excuse your behavior, but it does keep your behavior from destroying my heart.  

 2014, I’m taking away from you more discoveries of my purpose. Thank you for being the year that brought a wonderful man into my life to not only propose to me at our favorite spot, but to also take my hand in marriage in a city that I love (why doesn't everyone love Walterboro?!). I find great purpose in being his wife. Loving Drew is truly one of my greatest joys. I also was able to get a taste of the life of a school counselor. Wow. What an experience. As I think of the many stories that I could tell from the 102 hours I spent at Colleton County Middle, both a smile forms across my face and a tear starts to develop in my eye. I don’t take for granted the position of influence that I was honored to have in the lives of students that grew to mean so much to me.

I guess in closing, 2014, my life right now seems like it is at a major transition point and who knows what I’ll have to share at this time next year, but my prayer for 2015 is rather simple and stems off of a Sidewalk Prophets song. I am not very close to the person I need to be. I was created for more. I wasn’t created to be weighed down by the bitterness, unforgiveness and anxieties that this life can bring. As this year comes to a close, I am leaving all of those things at the cross  (and I encourage my readers to do the same). I was created to be like Jesus Christ. So, 2014, the Lord still has some “making” to do within me, but I’m well on my way of being a true reflection of Him.

                It’s been fun (well, mostly :P).

Blessings,
Hannah

 
Keep Making Me
Make me broken
So I can be healed
Cause I'm so calloused
And now I cant feel
I want to run to You
With heart wide open
Make me broken
 
Make empty
So I can be filled
Cause I'm still holding
Onto my will
And I'm completed
When You are with me
Make me empty
 
Til You are my one desire
Til You are my one true love
Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me
 
Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely

Monday, November 10

In The Waiting

Lately the Lord has been dealing with my heart - about my heart (and my brain that seems to be in planning overdrive these days). While working on a group counseling lesson tonight, I was reminded of a Scripture in the book of Psalms. Davids writes in Psalms 37:4, that we should take delight in the Lord, because He knows, and will give us, the desires of our heart. After a quick Google search, I discovered that the word delight means great pleasure. So, what the Scripture is saying is that we should take great pleasure in the Lord, and He will give us the desires of our heart.

There are so many things in life that I take great pleasure in (most of these things involve my husband's laughter - although it is generally at my expense), but I was convicted tonight because I have not been taking great pleasure in the Lord. I have not been delighting in Him as much as I should. I have been too concerned with feeling overwhelmed (or "in my feelings" as Drew would say) that I have forgotten to stop and praise Him for His faithfulness. I have failed to be thankful for THIS SEASON in my life. This season has been full of stress, feeling overwhelmed, uncertainties, and (of course) many happy days. I hope I am not alone in this - but how often I seem to forget the moments of pure joy, because I am too bogged down in just "getting through" to the next phase.

I have a quote on my office wall that says, "The trick is to enjoy life. Don't wish away your days, waiting for betters ones ahead." You know what though, the Lord revealed to me tonight that the trick of life is simple - spend every day, and every moment delighting in Him. Because when we choose to delight in Him, He will give us the desires of our heart.

My heart has been so heavy regarding a situation and tonight, at this moment (when coincidentally is also the exact time that I received a phone call about the situation - get behind me Satan ;)) I am CHOOSING to delight in the Lord. Is it fun in this moment? Not exactly. Is it easy? No way. But tonight, I know that above all He knows the desires of my heart and I will be joyful while delighting in Him no matter what season of life I am walking through. Because I have peace in knowing that my Jesus is in the waiting with me, and I am going to sit back, relax and delight in Him.

I'll admit it though, sometimes I need a "sign" that I'm not alone in the waiting. A song by Shannon Wexelburg always ministers to my soul during times when I feel weary in the waiting. Tonight I Googled the lyrics to put up on my office wall (notice a theme here), and the first link that showed in the results was titled Hannah's Hope. How perfect is that? Reading through this blog, which told the background story for Shannon's song was like lotion for my dry heart. I am so thankful for the Lord's faithfulness, especially in the times when I feel like I am failing because I need a sign of His faithfulness. In those moments,  He gently and lovingly puts one in my path. What a wonderful Savoir.

Please take a moment to read these lyrics, and listen to the song - I pray they encourage you if you are "hanging out" in the waiting like I am.

Blessings,
Hannah

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwyvmu-asJI

~In the Waiting~
I’ve tried to be strong
Is there something I’ve done wrong?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting here so long.
You see each tear
As the months have turned to years.
For some reason You must want me here.
But I can see You’re breaking up my fallow ground
In this season of such barrenness,
Lord, I have found

You are in the waiting
In that moment of my life
When my faith and hope collide.
While my heart’s anticipating
Just how and when You’ll move
That’s when you prove
You are in the waiting, too.

So plant Your seed
Till it’s living, Lord, in me.
Make me all You want me to be.
Unveil my eyes
If I’ve exchanged the truth for lies.
Give me faith so I can see
The work that you began
You will complete in me.
And I don’t have to understand the place You’re keeping me.

You give me water in the desert.
You lift me up on eagles’ wings.
And from way up high
I can see my life
From Your view of things.
And though I’ve cried for an answer
I believe that I can say:
“Thank You, Lord, for every answer
You’ve delayed.”

Wednesday, May 14

The Story of the Donkey and the Well ~ Shake it off, and stand on it!

After -for lack of a better word- a rather crummy day today my Dad reminded me a story that he once heard a preacher tell. The story is about a farmer, a donkey and a well.

One day a donkey fell into a deep well. As you can imagine, the donkey made enough noise that the farmer went to check on him and noticed what happened. Once the farmer realized the situation that he was facing, and knowing that there was no real way to get the donkey out, the farmer decided that the best idea would be to go ahead and fill the well with dirt. He called a few of his friends over, and shovel by shovel, they began filling the famer’s well with dirt. The donkey continued making noise for quite a while, even after they began to fill the hole, but eventually he was quiet. The farmer and his friends assumed what had happened to the donkey, so they looked down in to the well. To quite their surprise, the donkey was nearly nose to nose with them. You see, each time the farmers would toss dirt on the donkey; the donkey just shook the dirt off and took a step up. Eventually so much dirt had been tossed in the hole, the donkey was able to simply walk out of it.
The fact of the matter is that some days life is going to put you in a pit, and throw dirt on you.  But what I’ve discovered is that we can either choose to be buried alive in the “pits” we find ourselves in or we can make the choice to shake the dirt off and take a step up. Tonight I encourage you that when life throws dirt on you, that you make the choice to shake it off and stand on it. Rise above the crud that may come at you. Stand strong on the Word of God, and speak life to your situation.

I am so thankful for the people who speak life to me, but I’ve learned through the years, that sometimes the best thing you can do is to encourage yourself. Encourage yourself in the Lord. Let His joy be your strength. Allow His peace that passes all understanding to flood over you. And, most importantly, know that He has plans for your life that are far better than you can imagine.

 
Blessings, 
Hannah



PS - Listen to this song if you need to be encouraged this evening. :)
Encourage Yourself - Donald Lawrence