I'm not going back, I'm moving ahead.

With the new year coming up, many people make these resolutions to do certain things for the new year. Most of the time they are the generic lose weight, quit smoking, read the Bible in a year thing .. you know. I have never gotten into the whole idea of making resolutions for a new year, but this year I am making three – but I am calling them goals. I am a very goal oriented person and I love the thrill I get from achieving a goal. Hopefully this time next year, I will be beginning to feel that thrill.
Two of them I will write about on here, one is far too personal and I am not sure who I will share it with. I guess I will talk about one of them tonight, and then I will talk about one closer to the start of 2010. This year I am going forward and I refuse to go back - because the past (my past and your past) is OVER. I am not going back, I am moving ahead, seriously guys. I am so sick of the past constantly sucking people back in. Tomorrow is a new year, and 2010 is a new year. I have 365 days to let go of things in my life that have restricted me.
Sometimes life is nothing but a treadmill, you keep going over the same place over and over and over .. . In life we tend to make ourselves go back through situations over and over and over in our minds and we allow those situations to control us (and our destinies). Well, I refuse to allow my life to be like a treadmill anymore.
Because God makes ALL things new, and I WILL follow Him forward!

“Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” - Philippians 3:12-14

Blessings.
--Han

Sometimes you gotta just -- l e t i t g o.

Only some things in life make sense. Although what really matters is not the point that we don’t understand them but the point that eventually the things we don’t understand wont matter anymore.
Most things are only temporary but yet we act like the change will never come. We are born to die. We go to school to graduate. Everything in life has two sides to it. The first doesn’t matter, neither does the middle. Its not how you start but how you finish. Everyone begins life innocent but somewhere along the line everyone screws up .. but its how we end life that really matters.
Its how we learn from our previous mistakes that makes us stronger. Living in the past doesn’t work. You have to move on and learn from whatever mistake you made. Regret and guilt are a lot alike. They both leave a very bad feeling in your gut. Letting go is hard, but it has to be done. You cant live life hating yourself because of what you did (or didn't do) 10 years ago, last month or even yesterday. In life everyday is a new day.
Yes, some stuff may follow us, but we get to choose how to handle it again. Everyday is truly a gift from God, so why should we ruin it because of all the crap that happened yesterday? We shouldn't and even though letting go is much easier said than done we all have to do it at some point in life. Life is always changing and in order to live life to the fullest you have to learn to change with by letting some stuff go.

-- Han

Who is that girl I see … ?!

Have you ever sat down, looked in the mirror and stared straight into your eyes?
As I was putting on eyeliner the other week at my make-up mirror (Long story short about my make-up mirror is that it was my Granny’s and I actually remember her using it!) I started to look into my eyes. While I was doing this the song that Brandon Heath has become popular for “Give Me Your Eyes” started playing in my head and, of course, I began to sing along.

Then I stopped, and I looked deep into my own eyes. I will be honest; it was more of an intense moment than I thought it would be. I spent a good bit of time just sitting there, looking into my eyes.

Who have I become? Is it the person that I am a person that I thought I would be now five years ago? Is it a person that God is pleased with?
Every word we speak or action we do shapes who we are today which ultimately shapes who we will become years from now.

So, the next time you or I go to speak that word or do that action that we know we shouldn't we need to think about those days when we will be putting on our eye liner and have to look into our eyes. Or maybe more importantly, the day that Jesus will look into our eyes face-to-face.

-- Han

Baby, its C-O-L-D outside!

I hope you all had a great Christmas! Mine was different, but amazing. Holidays make me thankful for the people I call family .. well, most of the time. :) I haven't written here for the past week or so because I have been super busy .. but I do have things to copy and paste!

In other news tonight, its freezing which makes me think of my favorite Christmas song .. that I never sang this year. Ah, oh well. Only 362 days until I get the chance again.

Hope you enjoy the massive amounts of blogs that I am about to publish.

-- Han


Oh, and by the way. I have come to the conclusion that I like the font better in 'large' than 'normal' .. hopefully nobody cares about the huge words. :)

You Raise Me Up

For some unknown reason, the song “You Raise Me Up” is stuck in my mind tonight. I attempted to sing this song once, which I am pretty sure, was a complete failure. Lol, besides that I just think that this is a beautiful song. I really like any type of Celtic music actually which is rather embarrassing now that I think about it. Oh well, at least I am well rounded! Haha.
My favorite part of it goes something like this “I am strong when I am on Your shoulders .. You raise me up to me than I can be.” As a child I have very vivid memories of being on my Papa’s shoulders. I remember towering over everyone else because his six feet and my three made nine, which was usually taller than anyone else that would have been around. In those moments I felt like I could see the whole entire world. Fast – forward ten years and quite a few pounds my Papa can’t exactly put me on his shoulders anymore, and the only way I know how to explain the sensation would be like being in an airplane that is about to land. When you are coming in on a landing strip from being on a plane you can see miles of houses. It really is like seeing the big picture of a place, which is amazingly cool.
This makes me think about a verse in Isaiah, which says something to the extent of “They that wait upon the Lord, He shall renew their strength, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and now faint.” Not only was being on my Papa’s shoulders a amazing view, but it was also a time for rest. However, even at eighteen (and I’m sure even older as I age) I still need a break sometimes. What I have to do now though is lift my hands to Heaven and ask my Heavenly Father to pick me up for a little bit, because I know from His point of view He can see the magnificent ending that my crazy life journey is going to have - even when I don’t understand what He is doing.
I guess my point in all of this is just to tell you that if you ever feel like you need a break, just ask Jesus to pick you up for a little while. Take a load off and just relax in His presence. It is amazing. Seriously amazing.

-Han

Ch-ch-ch-ch-anges.

Tonight (which was actually many nights ago since I am late posting this on here) I was thinking about the thing that went around Facebook where you said twenty-five random things about yourself and if mine had changed any sense I wrote it a few months ago. A lot about life has changed, but what about facts about myself. What would I add or subtract from my list?

This is what I wrote on February 4, 2009, but now I’m going to edit it to my life as of December 15,2009.
1.) My full name is Hannah Alise Langdale, and I love it :).
This is still very true! I love my name, probably more than a person should.
2.) I have a 10 year plan, which I fully intend on living my life by and everything being perfect – even though I know it won’t!
This one makes me laugh because the past 10 months of my plan have definitely not been perfect!
3.) My favorite color is yellow, because it was my Granny’s favorite color and when she died I made it mine because for some strange reason I thought it would disappear if it wasn’t someone’s favorite! I was such a sheltered child!
I still love yellow.
4.) I don’t get attached to people very often, but when I do – I get really attached.
Once again, still very true.
5.) In all of the people in the whole entire world I only trust two of them enough to share any secret. One everyone could guess, because she is my best friend, but the other may shock people.
Still true, and I am so very thankful for my ‘secret keepers’ even though one of them doesn’t realize completely that he is.
6.) I hate change, and as selfish as it is – most change in my eyes is bad.
This is semi-true, because I have learned how to embrace and enjoy change even when I don’t like it at first.
7.) I have a thing with lists, and I make about three a day.
Oh yes, I love list! Seriously, they’re sticky notes all over my room, car and desk.
8.) I thrive off of pressure.
Definitely still true.
9.) I only like certain social settings.
This one isn’t all that true, because I have learned to enjoy just about any social setting and I am very proud of myself for it.
10.) I can’t sing well, but I really wish I could.
I am now substituting my sadness of a sucky singing voice, by playing piano and I really like it!
11.) I love a sale! I could spend hours at Belk looking through clearance racks.
Definitely, and now that I have a job, I do this much more often than I should ;).
12.) For the most part I like my new extended family better than my ‘older’ one.
This means many things, all of which are still true.
13.). I really like to dance!, but its more fun while in certain peoples company :).
Oh yes, because “Baby, you can have whatever you like” .. haha!
14.) I have a car, but no license – and I am content with that!
I now have a license and Chanel, who is my gorgeous kitty.
15.) I’ll be a lawyer one day.!
The jury is now out on this one (no pun intended) but I am still going to law school.
16.) I vent emotions by going for a walk.
I now just do this every day to waste time, but I enjoy it much more when I am stressed or worried.
17.) I like the radio better than CD’s most of the time.
Still true.
18.) Seven people that I have been close to have completely walked out of my life.
Well, that can be changed to six and a half because I am beginning to reconnect with one of those people.
19.) When I am missing people, I listen to songs that remind me of them.
Exactly what I am doing right at this very moment!
20.) I can’t wait to transfer schools, even though I have enjoyed my time at Salk.
This one makes me laugh too, because not only am I staying at Salk – but I work there!
21.) I sometimes miss the good ole' FCA days.
This is true.
22.) I went to DC for my first ‘real’ trip this past December, and I loved it!
Oh yes, and I can’t wait to go back this summer!
23.) I hated having pictures on the wall until I moved into this room.
New room .. and even more pictures on the wall! Photo frames are definitely my new thing.
24.) I am a focused person, but people who really know me could tell you that I have a fun side too.
Still true.
25.) I am a awful liar, and sometimes I wish I was a better one. Haha. (But just so you know, I didn’t lie the entire time I did this!)
Oh yes, definitely still true!

That was so intersting because large parts of my life have changed in that past ten months, but only a few things on this list. What it showss me is that I am who I am, and I have the goals that I have no matter where I am in life. If its a happy day, a sad day, a peaceful day or a stressful day -- God has me in the palm of His hand and He knows the big picture evn when it seems so unclear to me at times.

--Han

Eh, maybe tomorrow ..

I have come to realization in life that I am always saying tomorrow, but when I say tomorrow I then say that it is too late. This had been the case with not only blogging, but also with something in my personal life. I write things in Word on almost a daily basis, but often I am too lazy to edit them so they can be posted on here and then I think about how it would be lame to start posting again because its been two weeks. However, each day I say that that is just a day that eventually will make it three weeks.
Make sense?

So, as of tonight -- that is considered foolishness and if I want to write in Word for two weeks and then just post them all in one time here I am because it is NEVER too late to do something that you want to do - no matter if it's blogging or reconnecting with someone that you used to love.

Blessings.
--Han

You’re Breathing.

Ah, those two words bring back so many memories of the FCA days when Asher or Stephen would at least say them once a day. It’s an amazing thing to think about though .. you are breathing and there is nothing you can do to have constant control over your breathing patterns. Breathing is something that is so rarely thought of but it is what ultimately keeps us alive.

God breathed breath into all of our lungs, but are we using the breath that He gave us in ways that He desires us to? Are we using our breath to build people up, or tear them down? Are we using it to use language that we shouldn’t? Or maybe singing songs that are filled with vulgar and crude lyrics?

Ultimately, we need to ask ourselves multiple times a day whether or not we are using the breath that God gave us in ways that worship Him.

I do realize this is extremely short, but I don't know what else to add. I mean, just thinking about this is so powerful that I don't have words to express what I am thinking. Crazy, eh?

--Han

It's The Climb .. .

After all the times that I have been called ‘Hannah Montana’, I have finally discovered a Miley Cyrus song that I like! It’s called “The Climb”. The song has to do with how we chase our dream(s) and the stumbling blocks that can tend to get in our way.

I have felt this way about many things in my life. What I want seems so close, yet it is running faster from me than I can run to it. I have always been a bit of a ‘lets it done and over with’ type of person. I try to figure out ways to get things done, and get them done faster than they should be done. The fact of the matter is that we can just speed through life hoping that the next ‘phase’ will be better than the one that we are currently in. Life is a journey. Nothing will ever be completely perfect, and we should be thankful for every day that we are blessed to live of it. There is a line in the song that says something to the extent of how the parts of life that we struggle through to get to the good parts is what we will remember most. That is so extremely true. I will always remember the times of struggle in my life, that eventually got/will get me to where I wanted to be, or where I want to be.

I think that most of the population at some point in life either has a really high expectation of life or a low expectation of life, heck maybe even both. My goal is to find that middle ground. The place that no matter what happens I’m fine with it, even if it wasn’t part of ‘the plan’. Another part of the song is about how there will always be mountains that we will want to move, but sometimes we just have to face the fact that we are gonna lose the battle with it. Some mountains aren’t meant to be moved out of our lives. Sometimes mountains are there to make us stronger, and to help us realize who we really are. I think of all the times that I have almost settled because a mountain was in my way that I didn’t want to face. I honestly have no clue why I didn’t just let it go and settle, but I haven’t. It semi-scares me about how my life would end up if I would have settled with what I knew I didn’t want, but thought I did because it was the easy way.

I guess the point I am trying to get through is don’t ever settle, give up, or forget about your dreams. I feel like a silly little girl talking about dreams, but lets face it – we all still have them! We all want to be great things in life. We all still have the ‘little kid’ moments where we think about what we want to be “when we grow up”. Don’t let your dreams slip away for any reason!

Lastly, I want to say that I am so very thankful for the people in my life who have loved me thus far in ‘my climb’. I can’t express how much I am thankful for the ones who have been with me during the hardest and the happiest times in my life. The ones who have stuck around even when I wasn’t being the person that I should have been. I am so very thankful for those people. I love you all :).

Okay, well I guess I am done! I am going to end with my favorite quote, which I think goes perfectly with this blog.

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us". - Ralph Waldo Emerson

-Han

I give up!

Wow, giving up. What a low, sad, and undesirable place to be for some situations but for other situations it can be an amazing thing.
We could give up on a friendship, a marriage, ourselves, our dreams .. or we can give up on things like being content with unsucessfulness,bad habits and so on. However, giving up is all about in the way it is done and what it is done to.
As I sit here tonight, I think about the positive and negative ‘give-ups’ in my life. I think about the people who should have given up on me long ago, and yet for some unbelievable reason they did not. I also think about all the things in my life that were positive ‘give-ups’, like hoodies! : )
The one thing that keeps repeating in my mind is how many times God should have given up on me -- this young girl from a little place in the world called Walterboro who basically fails Him on a daily basis, who think she knows it all and can handle anything by herself, who takes for granted how blessed she is all the time, who doesn’t spend nearly enough time with Him as He deserves .. and yet He never does. It amazes me, because I know if I was God I would have honestly given up on us all. I mean, look at our nation and how far away we are from the truth yet He is so merciful to see us through. What an amazing love.
I don’t really have much to say, but watch this video because it inspired this post!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neveyJoWOwI

Blessings.
-Han

I'll give you a dollar if .. .

How many times have we all used (or heard) the line "If I had a dollar for every time I ______, I'd be rich!". I'm sure it is more times than could be counted with our fingers. An organization in North Carolina is taking the idea a bit further by giving girls (who are ages 12-18, in school and have a sister who gave birth before age 18) a dollar-a-day to stay in school, and be "baby-free". The group of 24 girls attend a meeting once a week and at the end of every week that they do not become pregnant, seven dollars is deposited into a special college savings account. By the time a girl has completed the entire program, she has about 3,000 dollars to help jump-start her college education.

I don't know how I feel about this whole idea of paying girls (who shouldn't be getting pregnant that their age anyway) to not get pregnant, but in some ways isn't it like paying children to do their chores? I know not everyone agrees with the idea of paying children to do chores, either -- but I do think it is a good way to build responsibility. What I know even more than all of it is that 3,000 dollars doesn't go that far when paying for college, but it sure could put a dent into it!

Anyway, I guess I should get to my point now. This idea made me think about what I would do if I got paid seven dollars a week to do it. Think of how crowded our churches would be if we paid people to be there? I'm sure they would be packed for every service and life group! How sad, but true it is that by our human nature we feel like we should be rewarded for doing things that should just be ordinary. However, in this world "doing the right thing" isn't very ordinary any more. Our nation that once was so devoted to God has seemed to stray so far from the truth, just like our teen girls who are giving themselves away without even thinking of the life changing repercussions that their actions could have.

This made me think of a song by Ken Holloway that my Dad used to listen to. It's called "The Ordinary". It is a country song that basically just talks about two guys talking after a date concerning "how far" they got with their girls. One of the guys says that "he loves this girl so much first he is going to buy her a ring". The chorus emphasizes the idea that what should be so ordinary to us, is quite the opposite of what is. The song continues on to talk about their life together.

The whole idea of what should be 'ordinary' to us has really got me thinking, so I'm sure I will write more along these lines later.

Here is the link for the paying girls thing: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,529037,00.html


-Han

Yay for blogging freedom!

Should this be called take 3? I don't see why not. Doesn't the old saying say that the third time is a charm anyway?! :)

As you all can tell the chapter a day thing was a bust. I feel like what God speaks to me through reading is far too personal to share with 'the world'. However, I do still recommend that you all read a chapter a day. If you give God the opportunity to speak to you, He will. Through reading He will speak to you about fears, disappointments, regrets, dreams, victories, hopes, desires (this list could go on forever) .. in more touching ways than you could ever imagine.

Now this is a theme free blog! I've realized that it obviously doesn't work well for me to write about only certain things, when my mind is actually extremely random. So, yay for blogging freedom.

Buckle in folks, this could be an interesting ride!

-Han

Becoming a blogger -- take two!

I will admit that I have been a major blog slacker. I started this to tell people about interesting things that happen in my day-to-day life. However, I soon realized that I didn't want to rethink about my day.
Sunday night in church I got the idea to blog about the chapter of the Bible that I read each day. I read things for myself personally, when I need encouragement or some insight. What I plan to do for this blog is to look at a chapter in Psalms daily. I hope that by reading this you are not only encouraged in the Lord, but that you also have the desire to begin reading a chapter a day yourself!

Here goes, Psalms 1 (NKJV)
1 Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
Nor stands in the path of sinners,
Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;

2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
And in His law he meditates day and night.

*Blessed are those who do not become like the world, because we are a a chosen people. We have to raise the standard, by not only how we treat others but also by we live our lives. We have to go 'against the flow' in many situations by being the ones who choose not to gossip, or choose not to cast stones. We must delight ourselves in the Lord, for in his presence is fullness of joy. I think that many people do things just to fit in, because they have the crazy idea that being accepted will bring them true joy. Believe me, it will not.

3 He shall be like a tree
Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.

4 The ungodly are not so,
But are like the chaff which the wind drives away.

*The people that listen, trust and obey the Lord will prosper. What a simple thought, that is actually so complex. I think about all the areas of my life (my family, my school work, my job, my future .. ), and how amazing the thought of each of those areas being fruitful is! I also think of how scary the thought of them not being fruitful is.

5 Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment,
Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.

6 For the LORD knows the way of the righteous,
But the way of the ungodly shall perish.

*These last two verses really sum up the entire chapter. I remember using the line 'Jesus knows .. ' many times while babysitting trying to talk kids into telling me truth. However, that isn't just some game that we use to make kids tell the truth. It is reality. Jesus sees everything we do. He knows the good, the bad and the ugly and yet for some reason He still chooses to love us with an unfailing love.

After reading this my prayer is that God keep me in His will. That He close my ears/eyes when something that doesn't line up with His thoughts about me (or anyone else) tries to enter my mind. That He close my lips when something that goes against His thoughts tries to escape my mouth. Or more simply put, that I never fall far from the plans He has for me.


-Han

As I was proofing this, I noticed a place where I wrote 'a' twice. Of course now I can't find it! So please, if you notice it, look over my mistake :).

Honesty.

Tonight I was thinking about the character quality that I admired most in a person and I came to the conclusion that it was honesty. I’m sure that every second a lie is told somewhere in the world and I am sure that all of us are guilty of lying at one point or another. People have lied to my face, lied about me, and my favorite – lied to me and been caught. I know it is a bit devious to want to catch someone in a lie, but I find it comical at times. Nine times out of ten I don’t even tell them that I found out, but I will always know not to trust them as much. Inspired by this posting about honesty I am going to do a survey called “100 Truths” --- I hope you learn something.

LAST:
1. Last beverage: Water
2. Last phone call: Mom
3. Last text message: Drue
4. Last song you listened to:It Happens by Sugarland 5. Last time you cried:About 3 weeks.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope.
7. Been cheated on :Nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Nope.
9. Lost someone special? Yes.
10. Been depressed? Sad, yes. Depressed, no.
11. Been drunk? Nope.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Yellow
13. Brown
14. Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends:No.
16. Fallen out of love: In a way, yes.
17. Laughed until you cried: No.
18. Met someone who changed you: No, swing and a miss.
19. Found out who your true friends were? Oh yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Sure have.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope.
23. How many kids do you want to have: However many God gifts me with.
24. Do you have any pets: Well, no.
25. Do you want to change your name: No, I love my name.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Dimitrios with Dad, Lisa, Rusty, Erin, Kyla and Fowler. Tropical Escape with Mom. Movies and dinner with Angela, David and Caleb.
27. What time did you wake up today: 8:00.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Talking.
29 Last time you saw your Mother: Tonight.
30. Last time you saw your father: Earlier today.
31. Wish there was something to change about your life: No, you live and you learn .. everything happens for a reason.
32. What are you listening to right now: The ‘Cupid Shuffle’. I know, it’s strange.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: The fact that my head hurts really bad.
36. What’s your real name: Hannah.
37. Relationship Status: Single.
38. Zodiac sign: Leo.
39. Male or female: Female.
40. Elementary School: Family Christian.
41. Middle School: Family Christian.
42. High school: Family Christian and Colleton High.
43. Hair color: Brown.
44. Long or short: Eh, medium?
45. Height: 5'4
46. Do you have a crush on someone: Not at the moment.
47. What do you like about yourself: My creative abilities.
48. Piercings: Ears.
49. Tattoos: None .. ever.
50. Righty or lefty:Right, but left is my favorite.

FIRSTS:
51. First surgery: Tonsils.
52. First piercing: Ears.
53. First tattoo: I don’t have one.
54. First best friend: Danielle.
55. First sport you joined: Soccer.
56. First pet: That I remember, Duke.
57. First vacation: Disney, duh.
58. First concert: CeCe Winans.
59. First crush: Lol, I’d rather not say simply because he and I are good friends now. I was young though, and yes – being young is a very good excuse in this case!
60. First alcohol drink:-Some holy wine at church. Just kidding guys!

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating: Nope.
62. Drinking: Water.
63. I'm about to: Go to sleep.
64. Listening to: Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson
65. Waiting for: My birthday party!

YOUR FUTURE:
66. Want kids: Absolutely.
67. Want to get married: Yes.
68. Careers in mind: Secret : ).

HAVE YOU EVER:
79. Kissed a stranger: No.
80. Drank hard liquor? Nope.
81. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes, as a child.
82. Sex on first date: Negative.
83. Broken someone's heart: I don’t think so.
84. Had your own heartbroken: Yes.
85. Been arrested: Nope.
86. Turned someone down: Yes.
87. Cried when someone died: Yeah.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl: Nope.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself: Yes.
90. Miracles: Yeah.
91. Love at first sight: Um, I’m not sure. 92. Heaven: Oh yeah.
93. Santa Claus: Nope.
94. Kissing on the first date: No.
95. Angels: Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now: Yes.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: Nope.
98. Do you believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever: Who knows, I guess if you try hard enough.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without: Light. I hate being in the dark, unless I’m sick.

Whew, five songs and twenty minutes later I’m done. I cut out 69-77 because they were about what you wanted in a relationship partner and I think some of those questions are shallow. I don’t guess I have anything left on my mind to say about honesty except that I value it in a person, because so few people have it as a character trait. I try to be a more honest person as each day goes by, because I know for a fact that the truth will always out live a lie!
-Han

A day of searching.

Today was the 9th anniversary of my Granny's death. I can't believe that she has been gone from us so long. I have been having random dreams about her lately, so as I woke up this morning I went on a search for memories. On my search I remembered the good times and the bad times. I remembered the way she looked, the way she wrote, and the way she loved. I remembered her being so sick and still smiling through the pain, even when I know that she didn't think she could take anymore.One thing I couldn't remember that I wish I could was the sound of her voice. It is amazing how some memories seem to fade away from our minds while others stay forever.


There is a Mercy Me song called "Homesick" that I listen to on days when I am missing those who have gone 'home' before me. The chorus goes "I close my eyes and I see your face. If home is where my heart is than I'm out of place. Lord, won't you give me strength somehow because I've never been more homesick than now." Often times when I am having a hard day I just close my eyes and search my mind for Granny's face. I know it is a bit creepy, but her face is always so peaceful. I truly believe that when I am in that moment I get a taste of what Heaven's peace is like. I can not wait for the day that I get to experience that peace all the time, and see her again.

I went on another search today, that was a bit more comical than my first one. As my Aunt Peg was fixing her weekly medicine container tonight she dropped one of her pills. Well, you see, Foxi is here and we were afraid that she would find the pill and eat is. So, since I am the youngest I go crawling around the floor looking for the lost pill. It was quite the adventure, but after several minutes of crawling in circles around the kitchen I found it!


I going to head on the bed now, even though I have a million things that I should stay up to do. Have I mentioned that I am still not done with the laundry?! Haha.

-Han

A day of two "T's" -- travel and tacos!

Today was spent like many days I have experience before. I left from exit 82 on I-77, then travelled to I-26 then finally made it to my final destination exit 57 on I-95. I, of course, wasn't alone for this journey mainly because I can't drive by myself! Haha. I was accompanied by my Mother and the dog, Foxi. I have to say that I love trying to read Foxi's mind as we begin on a journey from one 'home' to another. I don't think that she minds the car rides, because I really think that she thinks that it is just part of life to be confined in the car for a few hours every Friday and Sunday.However, today Foxi got a bit of a surprise because we made a minor detour to see my brother. It was a nice break from the endless amounts of interstate that my brain was being overloaded with. I tend to go through stages of boredom while riding in the car, especially when the traffice is heavy like it was today!


Usually I go through phases of entertianment thanks to the radio. Mom and I also play random games using the alphabet. Then other times I read books or magazines. However, when I get extremely bored I do the conceided thing of taking pictures of myself. Here is the evidence of my conceided act -- if you look hard you can see Foxi in the backseat!


We finally made it to our exit after what felt like an enternity of being on the road. I then went to Bi-Lo to buy stuff to make tacos. However, in my rush to get home so I could be free of the car, I left the bag with the hamburger and beans in the shopping cart! It would have been great if I had realized this before travelling the last 13 mins in our journey home, but -of course- I did not. So back to Bi-Lo we went to retrieve the meat and beans. After that most of my excitment for the day was through because all I have done since being home is cook and do laundry (which seems to be a never ending process). Now I am going to put another load on and hit the bed!

-Han

Introduction + Explanation = Intronation.

I will shamefully admit that I have been stalking strangers blogs for quite a while. Well, actually I prefer to say that I am just "observing others lives." I never really considered making a public blog until a few of my friends did it. I then decided to be a follower and make one myself! In my 'observations' I have noticed that many people begin their blogs with a introduction. I feel that an introduction is semi-unnecessary because anyone who reads this will already know me. However, I do think that an explanation of some interesting things about my blog would be a fun thing to write about.

The title of my blog is "The Chronicle of Hannah". I stumbled upon inspiration for the title as I am sure all of us have stumbled upon many discoveries -- google! Yes, I will admit it, I googled "blog names" looking for inspiration. As I was scanning the list the word "chronicle" caught my attention. After looking up the definition of chronicle I made the decision that it would be a perfect title for my blog. I then had to choose whether or not I wanted to make the word chronicle plural. After further reviewing the definition (which makes one assume that the word covers several events with-in its self) I decided not to.

Also, one of my favorite Bible verses comes from the book of Chronicles. It talks about how God's love is steadfast (firmly fixed in place) and endures forever. I find the verse very profound because it amazes me how after how the things in life that we screw up God still loves us with a steadfast love.

Ok, so now you know the story behind my blog. I hope you have happy reading! :)

-Han